PUT YOU HANDS TOGETHER AND JUST ASK

PUT YOU HANDS TOGETHER AND JUST ASK

So this higher power thing could maybe be as simple as "" let go let God "" I knew nothing of God as it was never spoke of in my house, I remember going to Sunday school a few times and a comfortable feeling as I colored in pictures and stuff. So I knew nothing of God other than what I heard in music.

I had listened to bands like pink Floyd and genesis, David bowie, Jim Morrison and wishbone ash, too many to mention but above all the band called the moody blues; these guys I love and had been listening to their stuff from the age of 14-15. The moody blues taught me more about myself than anything up till this point. I would lie in a dull lit room with Leo and his cousin John and listen to an album called in search of the lost chord. An album that opened a dimension within me I knew nothing about, yet felt so familiar. We would be sharing a bottle of wine or two and smoking hash; I'd close my eyes and sail into other places. I loved this and loved the feeling. This album taught me about Timothy Leary and Lsd and magic mushrooms. These were the best things I had ever taken back then. A completely different thing altogether from anything else I had took, I loved it, it was perfect, it was bliss, it was me! I could never get enough of this and it felt like a blessing when I did get it. Although today I feel no need to indulge for the hit as I did back then or for any shamanic stuff I may do now. I believe we live in a time where the vibrations from the cosmos and the earth are opening doors or should I say the veils are thinning between worlds and dimensions, I feel I do not need or want to use these hallucinogens to meet my higher power. I know this for a fact. I went home after the meeting that night and put my hands together lying on my bed I felt like a fish out of water, I had turned all lights off and closed the door and curtains, I was in total darkness and silence. I was as red as a beetroot as I asked this thing whatever it was a power greater than me I was told, I asked this power to come into my life. It was like speaking into a black hole. My face could have lit up the room with the embarrassment I felt. For six weeks I did this morning and night, God if your there come into my life. It got easier to say these simple words after a while and I got more comfortable with them. 6weeks on and I bring George in to my parents’ house for a chat. He asked if I would like to do some meditation, I had probably spoke to him of this as I've always been able to close my eyes and dream with music head banging or slow hippie kind of movements I have been able to shoot colours around my body and visualise stuff like this with ease, it was an ego booster for me as lots of people done it when they saw the enjoyment of me sailing with " free bird " or floating about on the moon (this I later found out was a big part of the shamanic journey and healing experience). Most thought I was strange and maybe a little cracked. I was not cracked or insane anything but although I had my own doubts at times with some of the states I was getting into physically and emotionally. I was being taught about energies how to work with my energies for healing. I didn't know that then, it was just a good feeling.